Been 15 years to the day since I mixed this album (straight analog from my 4-track to a CD burner) and started making copies for my friends. It really encapsulates a moment in time for me. Young, heartbroken, practically disconsolate, I wanted to make something of my sadness; I wanted it to be beautiful. Like a child I was selfish and indolent, but still, my misanthropy at this point was in its own way somehow charming. It takes many years for despair to gnaw away the bone, and although I had already begun to turn my back on the world, I was still very much in it — it was, after all, the place I got my drugs. I don’t know if you experienced the world as we did, my friends and I, in the late ’90s, but we lived without hope for the future, in a sort of purgatory of wanting and quiet abandon. The world was never going to be ours and we knew it. This is an album about love and resignation, a distress call from my bedroom to yours; it was never meant for prime time, and I never had my day. But it’s okay, everything is okay. The music is what matters, and the music is what remains. — Nick Douet, 12/15/2015
released December 15, 2000
All songs written and performed by Nick Douet.
Drums and bass on track 8 by Matt Ashman.
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